Ddubz

CTFHAYGGATT SO IRKING

IMPACT!!!

So I realized something after listening to the GBC podcast “Keeping Life From Getting Stuck” - Part I - Pastor Norman Nakanishi. It hit me when I heard Jodi Webb explaining the whole situation. As she explained about the story of the girl named Anela, who had an abrupt season, it striked my heart because the “Impact On Children.” Jodi summarized a story of the whole situation of Anela (a 10 year old girl), who had committed suicide. As she explained, the parents getting up late, looking for their daughter so they could take her to school. Anela wasn’t in her bed. They didn’t know where she was. They went upstairs and couldn’t find her. As she went out the exit stairwell, all she heard was this crash and they saw Anela on the ground. Later that afternoon, the cops found a suicide letter, but the whole time the parents were thinking it was a horrible accident. How could this be real!?! That’s when it hit me when Jodi Webb said as we mentor kids….Am I doing enough? I try to mentor kids but what else can be done to help these children? What can we do as families? What can we do as a church? I believe everyone has some kind of impact on children. No matter who’s looking, someone is looking up to you and by our actions, it affects children. As for me, a mentor, a leader, a man of God…Can I do more? This is where another selfish act takes place and I need to let go of that. By all of us not being selfish, we can prevent events like this where children feel like they cant be forgiven. We can break that if we focus on the children to hear and see the unheard and unseen. So let’s work as a team as one falls, we can encourage each other to look at the bigger picture and not the selfish picture of each of our own. There is a bigger picture and we all need to see it including myself and work towards that because this is our temporary life til eternal life. We have an Impact on each other!!! Be strong, praying and leading each other to God!!! Love you all Ddubz

Face Addiction

I’m addicted to your FACE!!! FACE ADDICTION!!!

Reminisce:

I remember that face.  I miss it so much.  When I could feel and touch.  Smile gets bigger when I’d tell you I like you so much.

Daily Life:

Whenever I wake up, I end up having a thought about you.  I don’t know how it starts.  I ask myself why?  Is it because of the impact you made on my life?

Do I want to think of you?  I do like how I view everyone else.  I know I don’t feel the same way I used to about you.  Many things changed between us.  As much unforgiveness, anger and tears poured out of me, I had to eat it up.  Did I want to?  Its just how life is.  Everything happens for a reason.

When I saw you make that face.  I realized I missed it so much.  You used to make that face to me.  As of right now, I don’t know what makes you make that face, but I do know something does.  When I saw you make that face, it gave me a feeling I haven’t felt in months, but really I can say I am happy that something makes you happy.  I’m so proud of your growth from your past to now.  So I only can wish and pray for you to have the best.

But to everyone else, I have a FACE ADDICTION!!!

EMO FOR JESUS

HMMM….

Crying For Amazement

Did you ever feel like crying out of nowhere? I had a vision that I was at a park, reminded me of CORPS, and I was looking at everything that God has crested. I appreciated the beauty of everything and especially the motion of how everything was moving around me. It came to a bottom point that I was just crying; crying for the amazement God has moved in my life from where I was before to where I am now.

I just feel like this right this instant for some reason.

God bless and love y’all!!! :)

Hmmm. more to come...

Some things going on in my life.

Some things to work on:

Stop teasing people.

Speaking Proper English.

Worship.

Saving Money.

Finding my PURPOSE.

Not to be prideful.

Some of the list for people I pray for:

Brian’s Mother:  Tested positive for Lupus Disease. Divine moment to know the Lord.

Clint: To let go and be happy!

Uncle Glenn: Walking testimony and T-shirt company.

Chris’s Mom: Had three heart attacks.

Part of the List for myself to pray for:

Dancing.

To SEE, SPEAK, and HEAR GOD all the time.

Purpose.

Get Toned.

Prophesy.

Teeth.

Don't Wait!!! LISTEN TO GOD THE FIRST TIME!!! :D

Hey everyone!!!  I realize writing in something like this helps me alot.  To write down a little to alot, it helps no matter on the quantity but on the quality of how much it means to a person.

For a website like this, after awhile we take advantage of it alot.  In the beginning, it seems so awesome and that its new and not alot of people may have this.  The same goes for xanga, myspace, asianavenue, facebook, and twitter.  Look how long I had a Tumblr, a few months already and probably less than 10 posts.  Is my passion to write, who knows?  Only the one above knows!!!

Over a year’s time, my life changed so much.  Am I the same person I was last year?  Why dont you tell me? :)

Anyways, it was a choice I made and I must say it was the most awesome choice of my life.  This choice was to follow GOD!!!  Do I regret it? NO…YOU MUST BE CRAZY!!!

I must say at times, it is hard to follow what he says, but afterawhile you’ll get a hang of it to just listen and have that content relationship with our DAD!!!  He is OUR FATHER!!! So believe, please!!! Thanks!!!

So I believe this post will turn out random because in a way I dont have anything planned to post on my Tumblr.  All of this is coming out as I think and type each letter.  Do I care who reads it? Not really?  Its a choice of yours to read…so please feel free if you would like…

Currently God has surfaced many things in my life.  It breaks me down and honestly, I think its healthy because I know I have room for improvement.  God knows everything about me from head to toe and FROM THE INSIDE OUT!!!! So why hide from him when you and I both know that he knows our HEARTS????  If you do have an explanation, please tell me…Im not sayin I will believe you though cause let me tell you now I WONT BELIEVE YOU!!!! SORRY!!! :( ONLY JESUS :D

So what has he surfaced?  Here let me tell you one of the things:

WORK… For one thing, is everyone believes that they need to work because of the money.  Let me tell you my perspective,  I’ve been working at New Creations for almost five years.  So basically, I was 16 when I first started working.  After so many years, I work my way from the bottom of the totem pole to the top in what my job position was and my pay at work.  In the beginning, I was in a learning process until I hit a wall that I was too blind to see.

Well let me rephrase that, basically GOD told me to quit a few times, Did I listen? No, which explains why I’m still working there currently.  God told me a few times to quit and I didnt listen because although we got new management and everything, I ASSUMED that everything will go back to a chill job.  Basically, I told GOD to WAIT.  And for quite some time now, I havent been learning anything, because I kind of learned everything. So for me still working there, it shows how stubborn and selfish I am.

This past weekened, well Saturday to be exact, I was talking to one of my sisters about it and I started crying.  Overtime, I didnt know my workplace was hurting me and stopping me to reach the next level with God.  So for this sister I do say THANK YOU!!!  YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! :D

So for now I created a deadline, and I decided to quit by the end of this month.  Why am I quitting?  GOD TOLD ME TO AND THIS TIME I DECIDE TO LISTEN.  Was I really glorifying God’s kingdom at my workplace?  Honestly, I did my best and I know God wants to place me somewhere else to even FURTHER HIS KINGDOM.

So going back to the beginning how some of us think by our workplace brings in the money.  LET ME TELL YOU WITH A PASSION, THAT YOU ARE WRONG!!!!

JESUS IS OUR PROVIDER!!! OUR WORKPLACE IS NOT OUR PROVIDER!!! YOU (YOURSELF) IS NOT YOUR OWN PROVIDER!!!  SO ITS NOT ABOUT THE MONEY!!!

In my case, I wasnt into the money but I did believe by me going to work, it would bring in the money.  Do this for me!!! STOP whatever you are doing and SPEND TIME with GOD and ask him anything you like.  Just talk to him like a friend, for one thing he is our father.

So closing off with my work which God has surfaced.  REMEMBER LISTEN TO GOD, HE KNOWS WHAT HE’S DOING.  DONT TELL GOD TO WAIT EITHER.  DONT ASSUME EITHER!!!

God is working with myself in these areas so my relationship with him is even better.  GOD is LOVE!!!!

a reminder to me from a sister

well, i mean this life with God..its a journey..and its not always gonna be easy, its painful many times. but when you look at it as a journey, when you look at it from HIS perspective knowing that all things happen for a reason, you keep going always no matter waht

so yeah, perseverance over emotions and fear in Jesus name

some goals for the month

Lose weight

Pay $32 for hearphones

Squash Beef

Find new job

…just a few stuff on my mind for this month hehe

One thing, however, will never fail.  Of the realities that remain when all else is gone, only one is supreme: love.

There it is.  Without love, we fail.  With it, we can’t help but succeed.

This kind of love combines virtues such as patience, honestly , forgiveness, trust and god manners.